did i spell that right? i think i spelled that right... oh well. to fucked up to care too much

im in the habit of never sleepng at nigth and only speeping about three four hours in the afternoon. it has been this way for a month. for a while i was likeing it. i like the night. i could watch the sunrise. i can get my chores done whiout mom around. for a month i was chillin

but now that all lack of sleep is chrashing on me, in always tired, always sick, and no matter waht i do i cant fix either of these problems. vikatin dosent help with the pain( in fact it makes it wores, i dare not touch it any mote) and sleeping vitamins dont help with tht the sleep, no matter how tired i already am.

so now all of this has caused a strage phenomenon( is that right?). ill be up at 6 in the morning( like now ) either out of mind from sleeplessness, pain, or maybe the vikatin, and ill be watching TV or reading or on the computer. then all of a sudden in on a different web site or im watching a different movie than befor or im reading like 50 pages off from where i remembered.

am i blacking out?

and, heres the kicker, last night i was watching one of my movies i downloaded on the computer-- o brother, where art thou. then when it was over i went on DA and found a journal on my front page i had no recalection of writeing. it had been there for only two hours or so. in the journal i had asked what people what they would sell their soul to satan for

im sorry if i my grammering is bad.... fucking hurts